Feels like I’ve abandoned this blog, however I think simply not having time for it is more accurate. Life is busy. Life is good.
This blog was started from sadness. I thought the love of my life had just dumped me and I wasn’t sure I was going to survive it. This blog gave me an outlet and anonymity. Fabulous strangers told me they understood and sympathized with me.
Somehow I moved beyond the sadness and spent a lot of time dating a lot of people. Sometimes there was no date. Only sex. It was an interesting period and I cringe at some of my memories, laugh at others and am grateful for most.
I joined Match.com at the very end of July 2011. It was such a yucky experience that my profile only stayed visible for 11 days. I met a lot of jerks in 11 days. Blue Eyes and I exchanged phone numbers during those 11 days but he didn’t actually contact me until after I’d shut my profile down. I was so jaded and skeptical and sick of wasting my time when he asked to get together I said no. He asked again and to get him to leave me alone I made our first meeting very difficult on him, with ridiculous location and time specifics. I told him I only had 27 minutes to spare and if he was late it was his problem, not mine. None of this phased him.
After that first meeting we dated for awhile and I decided he was too nice. Too nice. I broke up with him three months after we started dating because he was too nice.
Six weeks later he called me out of the blue and asked me out. Life has been pretty spectacular since that moment. Ups, downs, twists and turns but spectacular nonetheless.
He has been my husband for a little over a year, yet our wedding is 27 months away. We do not live under one roof, yet we spend every possible moment together. I wouldn’t suggest this course of action to anyone, but it works for us right now.
My very best girlfriend took some photographs of us recently. As I scrolled through them I saw how this lovely man looks at me, how I look at him and what love and happiness looks like, despite the day to day trials of life.
I love this man and all of his niceness. Despite my personal feelings about Match.com I will forever be grateful that they made “us” possible.
Be well people!
xoxo
Transparent with Myself 